The Unworthy God!

I Asked Him Why are You Sitting Here? He Said, no Just to Relax, How are You?

I Said, Not Bad, I am Fine, and Sit Near Him Looking Into the Horizon,

I Again Asked Him Why You Look So Sad?

He Gave Me a Sad Smile and Told, 

You Know, I am a God, But Sometimes I Feel So Insulted and Unworthy When My Own Rejects Me.

I Said, wow, What Happen Now To Become This Much Down?

He Looked At Me For a While and Said,

When I Call Someone to Serve Me, He Comes to Me Giving Lots of Promises and Lots of Love To Me, When I See that I Feel So Proud and I Dream Good Things Over Him, Good Mission Through Him.

But When He Walk With Me In Years of Formation and Life, One Day I Will Find That He Run Away Abandon Me Even Without Telling Me a Good Bye.

Sometimes He Tells The World That My House is Bad and It is Unworthy To Be My Servant and Sometimes He Even Announce To The World That I Don’t Exist.

The Child The Most I Loved, To Whom I Dreamed and Planed Great Things Turn His Back Towards Me and Claiming That I Am Just a Myth.

I Laughed In Big Voice, He Looked at Me In a Pity Way,

I Said, Hey Bro, This is Not Your First Experience,You Know It Is How Man Behaves, So Why Worry Yaar? Just Forget It Yaar...

Taking a Long Breath He Said, Yea I Know and I Accepts But I Can’t Able to Cover My Pain, I Can’t Able to Hide My Tears.

You Know Today A Beautiful Child I Loved So Much and Carried Her On My Hands Said Good Bye To Me,

When She Said Good Bye, She Didn’t Looked At My Face As If I Am Someone Who Is So Ugly.

I Gave Everything She Wanted and Kept Her Always Near to My Heart As My Beautiful Child, My Little Bride.

But When She Left Me, She Said, You are Okay, But Your House and The People In The House is Not Acceptable For Me, Hence I Am Leaving You.

Today When I Sit Here, I Just Remember All The Promises She Made To Me and All Those Good Words She Told Me.

In These Years, I Always Wanted Her To Help Others As My Hands, Comfort Others As My Voice and Presence. But Now All Those Dreams are Just Dreams and Nothing More.

I Said, Hey, I Know The Pain, But You Can’t Do Much Yaar.

You Know All Those Who Leave You Always Got a Reason, Why You are Not Making The System Better. Perhaps They are Also Right.Don’t You Think So?

He Smiled and Said, Last Day One of My Son Left Me,The Reason He Told Is That He Loves A Girl  Who Comes From a Different Culture, Life Style and Practice and As He Can’t Live Without Her, As He Loves Her So Much,  He Decided to Reject Me and Throw Me Out From His Life For Her.

You Think They Rejects Me Only Because of System?No, They Always Have a Reason To Reject Me; Or They Will Make a Reasons To Reject Me For Their Gain, Because For Them I Am Just a Servant Who Gives Them What All They Ask, For Them I Am Just A Guard Who Protects Them From Hazards 

For Them I Am Just A Foolish God Who Forgives Them What All Bad They Do For The Sake of My Love Towards Them.

Do You Think I Am a Heart Less Person Who Can Be Used When You Need and You Can Throw Me When You Don’t Want Me In Your Life?

I Also Got Flesh, Blood and a Good Heart.

You Always Got Right to Reject Me, Pain Me, Insult Me. But Please Understand I Am a God and When You Do These All To Me I Feels Hurt, My Eyes Floods With Tears, My Heart Breaks.

He Paused and Continued,

Yea, Perhaps I Am Loving Them Too Much That I Forgets What They Do To Me In These Years, Yes I Am a Foolish God Who Loves Them This Much That Even By Giving My Own Life I Purchased Them,

Let Them Reject Me, Hurt Me, Wound Me, Insult Me,But I Won’t Stop Loving Them.

This is How I Am Going To Take Revenge upon Them,

The More They Hurt Me, The More I Love Them.

And I Have Hope That One Day They Will Learn to Love Me As I Love Them.

I Will Make Them Force to Love Me.

I Said Nothing,

Let Us Go Bro, It is Getting Late. I Said and Stood,

He Said, No, You Go, I Want Sometime More Here With My Heavenly Father, I Have to Convince Him That I Am Okay and Didn’t Hurt and Still I Didn’t Fail, Today or Tomorrow I Will Win The Hearts of My People, My Children.

I Left Him There.

I Don’t Know The Future, But I Know His Passion Is So Pure and Strong That One Day, Man Kind Will Know How Much He Loves Them and Will Be Forced To Love Him IN RETURN!