- Scribing Some
Shattered Thoughts Came to My Mind, When I Sit Idle. -
Life is
not that bad to me even though I Lost Many of Precious Memories from my life
and Lost Many of My Valuable Time.
I always
considered and though Myself proud of
facing life face to face without fear and for the daringness inside Me to watch
the future embrace Me in Its unpredictable Strong Crushing Hands.
Even
though I Always Expecting an unfavourable Moment In Life; I
Deliberately Suppress the Fear behind My Dreams and Hope to Not To Fall Till
The End I Achieve My Targets of This Beautiful Journey.
Sometimes
Dreams Shatters Like Fading Mist and Hopes Like a Fake Imagination,
The Wise
Told Me Not to Dream and Not to Expect Too Much From Dreams and Hopes;
I Know,
They are Right,
But They
Don’t Know It is Only The Dreams and Hopes are My Companions to Find My
Destiny.
Without
Them I Will Be Too Alone and Won’t Able to Complete This Pilgrimage Which I
Have to Finish Before Time.
In Life
I always wanted to Be Strong before world and Self.
But
Sometimes Life Wants Us to Come Out From the Shell We Build Around Us to Make
Ourselves Comfortable By Our Fake Assumptions to Teach Us New Lessons of Life.
Last day
when I Walk, Somehow I Missed One Step Before Me and my knee bend like I Just
Fall,
Entire
My Body Weight Came to My One Leg and It Strained My Leg Muscles and Made My
Leg Difficult to Move forward.
Holding
The Hands of My Friend, Immediately I Raised As If Nothing Happen.
But I
Find It is Not Easy to Move Forward, In a Second Entire Body and Head Drenched
With Sweat.
Yea,
Always You Can’t Skip Problems, Sometimes What You Have to Face, You Have to
Face.
After
Taking Some Rest, We Started Walking, Crippled...
I
Thought Perhaps If I Get a Pan With Me Then Perhaps I May Get Some Charity
Showing My Crippled Leg,
Unfortunately
We Missed to Take a Snap of That Moment in Our Mobile or Camera.
Any How
We Finished Our Mission There With That Crippled Leg and I Said Bye to Him and
Return Home.
On The
Way Back Consultant Our Doctor and He Said Not to Worry.
Then
Three Weeks,
I
Understood The Value of a Leg.
No Much
Pain, No Plasters, No Other Issues But I Can’t Able to Walk Properly With My
Left Leg.
Even
Though Doctor Asked to Take Rest, A Kind of Fear Came to My Mind.
I Said
My Mind, that it is a Muscle Strain, You Can Able to Walk, Don’t Worry.
In That
Moment, I Thought About People We See Around World On Wheel Chair, Crippled,
With One Leg, With No Leg and Disabilities.
I
Realized The Pain They Suffer Every Second of Their Life.
As Long
As We Don’t Lose Anything From Us, We Won’t Understand The Value of What We
Got.
Any How
to Overcome My Fear, I Started to Make My Leg to Walk and Forced Him By Doing
Exercises Which Really Didn’t Do Good But Worsen The Condition, Leg Feet
Started Swelling.
Then I
Understand I Have to Relax and Stop Struggling.
Yes,
Sometimes Our Struggle Won’t Help To Solve The Problem,
Today It
is Third Week, Sitting and Relaxing at Home,
Not
Feeling Good or Happy, But Sometimes In Life We Will be Forced to Sit Idle and
Helpless.
Actually
I Have to Learn Alot and Do Some Simulations, But Didn’t Touch The Book in
These Days.
Sometimes
We Have Amble Time To Waste and Later We Suffer For It. Usually It Happens With
Me. I Know It, But Still I am Not Learning From My Mistakes.
In These
Days, I Thought About My Grandpa, He Was 84, But Strong Heart, 6 Pack Body,
Clear Vision, Clear Hearing, Only He Lost Some Teeth and Some White Hairs Made
Him Old Man.
One Day
He Fallen and His Leg Born Broken,
Doctors
Fixed It With Screws and Steel, But After He Came to Home I Didn’t See He got
Courage to Walk, He Never Even Give a Try. Perhaps I Didn’t See,
I Saw
Him Always in Bed Sleeping Tired, He Refused to Get Up Even Though He Can,
Perhaps.
And
Unfortunately It Weaken His Health and Body and In a Month He Passed Away.
I Always
Confused That Why He Didn’t Try to Walk, Perhaps He Could Have Walk, Then
Perhaps He Could Be Alive. But He didn’t Try.
Today, I
Think Perhaps He Tried But Failed and Then Perhaps He Realized His Running is
Over and He Let Himself Into The Freezing Hands of Death Without Struggle or
Pain Away From Struggle and Pains of this World.
When We
Have Reasons to Live, We Won’t Let Ourselves, We Will Struggle, We Will Fight;
But When We Don’t Have Any Reasons to Live Further, Any Dream Left For Tomorrows;
Then We No More Show Resistance To The Decision of Almighty God For a Graceful
Return.
Today
Sunday Is My Last Day I am Giving to Rest, Three Weeks Over, Still I Am Not
Fully Cure, But I Have to Walk, I Have to Go Outside, I Have to Be Normal.
Because
Sometimes It Is Not Easy to Accept The Decisions of Destiny As He Says,
Obstacles
May Come In Life, Hope May Loss, Dreams May Fade, Those Who Accompanied You May
Return, But You Never Changes and Your Missions, Your Pilgrimage. Everybody Has
to Finish Their Destination,
For That
We Should Not Get Distracted By What We See Around Us, With Us.
Because
What We See is Not As It Is Seen!
