The Fallen Man

- Scribing Some Shattered Thoughts Came to My Mind, When I Sit Idle. -

Life is not that bad to me even though I Lost Many of Precious Memories from my life and  Lost Many of My Valuable Time.

I always considered and though Myself  proud of facing life face to face without fear and for the daringness inside Me to watch the future embrace Me in Its unpredictable Strong Crushing Hands.

Even though I Always Expecting an unfavourable Moment In Life; I Deliberately Suppress the Fear behind My Dreams and Hope to Not To Fall Till The End I Achieve My Targets of This Beautiful Journey.

Sometimes Dreams Shatters Like Fading Mist and Hopes Like a Fake Imagination,

The Wise Told Me Not to Dream and Not to Expect Too Much From Dreams and Hopes;

I Know, They are Right,

But They Don’t Know It is Only The Dreams and Hopes are My Companions to Find My Destiny.

Without Them I Will Be Too Alone and Won’t Able to Complete This Pilgrimage Which I Have to Finish Before Time.

In Life I always wanted to Be Strong before world and Self.

But Sometimes Life Wants Us to Come Out From the Shell We Build Around Us to Make Ourselves Comfortable By Our Fake Assumptions to Teach Us New Lessons of Life.

Last day when I Walk, Somehow I Missed One Step Before Me and my knee bend like I Just Fall,

Entire My Body Weight Came to My One Leg and It Strained My Leg Muscles and Made My Leg Difficult to Move forward.

Holding The Hands of My Friend, Immediately I Raised As If Nothing Happen.

But I Find It is Not Easy to Move Forward, In a Second Entire Body and Head Drenched With Sweat.

Yea, Always You Can’t Skip Problems, Sometimes What You Have to Face, You Have to Face.

After Taking Some Rest, We Started Walking, Crippled...

I Thought Perhaps If I Get a Pan With Me Then Perhaps I May Get Some Charity Showing My Crippled Leg,

Unfortunately We Missed to Take a Snap of That Moment in Our Mobile or Camera.

Any How We Finished Our Mission There With That Crippled Leg and I Said Bye to Him and Return Home.

On The Way Back Consultant Our Doctor and He Said Not to Worry.

Then Three Weeks,

I Understood The Value of a Leg.

No Much Pain, No Plasters, No Other Issues But I Can’t Able to Walk Properly With My Left Leg.

Even Though Doctor Asked to Take Rest, A Kind of Fear Came to My Mind.

I Said My Mind, that it is a Muscle Strain, You Can Able to Walk, Don’t Worry.

In That Moment, I Thought About People We See Around World On Wheel Chair, Crippled, With One Leg, With No Leg and Disabilities.

I Realized The Pain They Suffer Every Second of Their Life.

As Long As We Don’t Lose Anything From Us, We Won’t Understand The Value of What We Got.

Any How to Overcome My Fear, I Started to Make My Leg to Walk and Forced Him By Doing Exercises Which Really Didn’t Do Good But Worsen The Condition, Leg Feet Started Swelling.

Then I Understand I Have to Relax and Stop Struggling.

Yes, Sometimes Our Struggle Won’t Help To Solve The Problem,

Today It is Third Week, Sitting and Relaxing at Home,

Not Feeling Good or Happy, But Sometimes In Life We Will be Forced to Sit Idle and Helpless.

Actually I Have to Learn Alot and Do Some Simulations, But Didn’t Touch The Book in These Days.

Sometimes We Have Amble Time To Waste and Later We Suffer For It. Usually It Happens With Me. I Know It, But Still I am Not Learning From My Mistakes.

In These Days, I Thought About My Grandpa, He Was 84, But Strong Heart, 6 Pack Body, Clear Vision, Clear Hearing, Only He Lost Some Teeth and Some White Hairs Made Him Old Man.

One Day He Fallen and His Leg Born Broken,

Doctors Fixed It With Screws and Steel, But After He Came to Home I Didn’t See He got Courage to Walk, He Never Even Give a Try. Perhaps I Didn’t See,

I Saw Him Always in Bed Sleeping Tired, He Refused to Get Up Even Though He Can, Perhaps.

And Unfortunately It Weaken His Health and Body and In a Month He Passed Away.

I Always Confused That Why He Didn’t Try to Walk, Perhaps He Could Have Walk, Then Perhaps He Could Be Alive. But He didn’t Try.

Today, I Think Perhaps He Tried But Failed and Then Perhaps He Realized His Running is Over and He Let Himself Into The Freezing Hands of Death Without Struggle or Pain Away From Struggle and Pains of this World.

When We Have Reasons to Live, We Won’t Let Ourselves, We Will Struggle, We Will Fight; But When We Don’t Have Any Reasons to Live Further, Any Dream Left For Tomorrows; Then We No More Show Resistance To The Decision of Almighty God For a Graceful Return.

Today Sunday Is My Last Day I am Giving to Rest, Three Weeks Over, Still I Am Not Fully Cure, But I Have to Walk, I Have to Go Outside, I Have to Be Normal.

Because Sometimes It Is Not Easy to Accept The Decisions of Destiny As He Says,

Obstacles May Come In Life, Hope May Loss, Dreams May Fade, Those Who Accompanied You May Return, But You Never Changes and Your Missions, Your Pilgrimage. Everybody Has to Finish Their Destination,

For That We Should Not Get Distracted By What We See Around Us, With Us.

Because What We See is Not As It Is Seen!